bad day

Finally... I am sick.
No mood to do anything, but I still need come to Uni. All because the "undone" ASSIGNMENT. I feel very tired to handle this assignment. The lecturer's classes like got many seasons. SPRING, SUMMER... SNOW. What he said always different de. I really do not know what he actually want.

I miss my Honey very much now. And I miss my papi very much. I feel alone when I fall in sick. It feels like nobody besides me. Luckily I got my Honey. He stay besides all over the night to take care of me. Thank you...

I wish that the Moral class can end early so I can go back early.

SENTIMENT

Sometimes I think that people should be brave to get their own happiness…

Sometimes I think that a too brave people will ruin the progress of relationship…

May be too many things had been done wrong in the beginning of the relationship…

A force relationship cannot get happiness in the end…

Some men thought that women should not take initiative in one relationship… I don’t understand.

Is that due to the ego problem of men???

Should I be brave to explore my deep ‘heart’ to someone??? I am a lady…

Nobody have the accurate answer!!! The answer is within you.

But I already choose to explore it… And I know I did it correctly… At least I make it clear…

AHLSS - BUFDAY ...

Now talking about my forth birthday cake… I am a bliss person. Have so many people celebrated birthday for me. Hahaha!!! The title is meaningful. Do you know what the 5 alphabet represent? These represent 5 of us, heart and soul.

At the Red Box in The Curve was my forth birthday celebration. This was a celebration with my dearest group members or called as best friends in Uni. I felt very touch. You guys spend out your precious time to help me celebrate.

We spend three hours staying in Red Box and done a lot of “things”!!! Do not think senget… We sang songs and eating… I sang the first song… “Wish myself Happy Birthday” (Translate frm Chinese). 祝我生日快乐！

Hamm!!! AOKC… What to say about him lay??? This was the first time he came to KTV. He was so jumpy and quickly brought out his hand phone to took his own photo. So proud of his look!!! One more thing, the key of songs he sang was wrong de…

Li hoh!!! In the beginning, eat and eat only. After that, sang songs. Then busying record video and took photos. She was quite busy. In the end, eat and eat only. Actually, she is quite good in photo taking and video recording… Hahaha!!!

When sang song, Seng thought that he so famous ooo!!! Everyone likes listen to his. Haiz!!! Apa friends from HILL-TOP, friends from mana-mana… (山顶来的朋友，谷底的朋友)… Wah!!! Suddenly got so many fans ooo!!! Illusion!!! Actually, the best singer within us is him. Hah! Within us only.

Now is Stephen time – the big ass person… The first song he sang was our team’s theme song – Bye Bye, from Mariah Carey. He was quite busy on that day. His phone always rang. I don’t know he came to celebrate my birthday or came to answered phone. I felt happy for him. He gets a good new on that day. Grade up become supervisor. Hahaha!!! Next time can treat us for meal already. Thank you, Ass.

My turn… Actually, this was my first time celebrated birthday in KTV. Felt very happy and touch. They sang so many different types of birthday song – traditional, in, and some haven’t heard before. 还被人逼我咬蜡烛啦！哈哈哈!!!

对于你们的厚爱，在此献于无极的感激。Thank you for all of you… My wishes are that

First, I hope we can stay in the same assignment group till the end of Uni life;

Second, our friendship will improve and last forever; &

Third, we will always gather together after graduate and talk about our recent lives.

Hope that you guys help me realize my wishes. I very appreciate the friendship build between us.

Lastly, thank you for all.

Amazing

I felt very happy on my special day. My dearest course mates helped me celebrated my birthday. They really gave me a surprise birthday celebration.

I had discussed with Li, Seng, Step & AOKC where to go. After I made a phone call to my Honey, my bag disappears suddenly. AOKC helped me to find around the classroom. Then, PH suddenly came out and asked me helped her to carry bag. At that moment, I already thought that this is a trick.

When I first stepped into the dark room, I already found out that they help me celebrate. The first question that I asked them was: “Anyone of you sees my bag?” What a funny question!!!! After make a wish, the light was on. Finally, I found my bag… June ‘stole’ my bag. Then, AOKC was an accessory. Thank for you all. You really surprised me.

This was my third birthday cake. And was the most surprising one!!! Besides, I like the lovely present you guys bought me as birthday present.

From here, I want to say thank you to all of you: AOKC, Fong Pheng, June, May Lin, Fai Shok, GSC, PH, Sam, Ru Yee, Yeoh Choo, & Step. Although YY didn’t at there on that time, but I know her heart was there. Thank.

Courage...

After struggled for few weeks, exam end already. But still can't relax after the exam end. Still feel very stress...,,,...

Recall back before the exam start, I had said that I wanna tell him that I like him on the last day of exam. On that day, he got talked to me. At the moment my heart struggled... I don;t know wether I anna tell him or not. What are the consequences if I tell him the truth? Can he accept it? Would it influence our current relationship? Thre are many questions appeared on my mind at the moment...

Finally, I choose not to tell. I will keep this secret till end of next semester. I wanna observe myself wether I really like him o not... I prolong the time to acquire real and accurate result.

Hope that I can do it!!!

For HIM

I feel tired about this feeling.
I don't know whether I can continue hold on or not.
I feel like want to tell him my feeling.
Sometimes I feel that he got feeling to me too...
But sometimes I find no...
One thing that I can make sure is that he always reinforce my feeling...

曖昧讓人受盡委屈　
找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進　何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

For HIM...
If you know that you are the "HIM" inside my heart,
Please let me know how you feel...
Stop afflict me di...

曖昧讓人變得貪心　
直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你　寫不出結局
放遺憾的美麗　停在這裡

A SONG represent my feeling towards HIM

if i had to live my life
without you near me
the days would all be empty
the night would seem so long
with you i see forever all so clearly
i might have been in love before
but it never felt this strong
our dreams are young and we both know
they'll take us where we want to go

if the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way of us
like a guiding star i'll be there for you
if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
i love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
i'll help you see forever too

hold me now
touch me now
i don't want to live without you
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now
how much i love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than you love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

STUDY GROUP - Especially for Step, Li & Seng...

Now blaming me???

APOLOGIZE :
Sorry need to be said to 3 of you. Was not that I don't want to join you guys on yesterday study group. A small incident happen. I lost my car key. My boyfriend accidentally took away my car key. I don't have transport to go to PJ. Rain heavy somemore. That's why I cannot joined you guys yesterday. This is my reason for not joining...

BLAMING...
Huh!!! I didn't join you guys ni ma. 3 of you become so naughty ar??? Step... You say want to form study group due to boring when study alone... Li... You want study group because you don't have mood to study... Seng... You alway no mood study one la...Not till last last minute, you won't study one... Everyone want study to save our Abnormal *(the most hatest subject) final mark. Then, without me yesterday, you guys went to makan ooo... From Starbucks makan till BBQ Chicken ... What 3 of you done yesterday were makan only??? Do nothing??? If like that, you can come to Klang. We go makan together. At least you can learn sth. I can teach you some history about Klang and show you some interest place. (Although I don't know). Hahaha!!! Next time, I will in charge of the study group to avoid same problem (Eating w/out learning).

Examination...
Hope that all of us can score higher in coming exam. So, everyone must study hard lol...

Lastly...
Thank for all of you. Thank for spending time reading this. Thank for all the concern and caring.

Mid Valley

This is the first time I join Mayvis, Annie, Cathy & Cheryl go for movie. Go to Mid Valley at 8p.m. later. Haven't bath yet ley... Very lazy to go out ooo... Feel very tire today... My brain very tired. Memory and insert many things into my mind.

Money Not Enough 2... A nice movie. Now is the time for me to relax. Can't force myself too much. Later I become crazy, How??? Haha

Study Group

Very very hardworking today... Study for 8 hours non-stop...

I came to PJ at 8.30am, and waited for Step about half an hour at Asia Jaya. Always came late. Haiz... Having dinner at Tasty Treats - 'old place'... Waiting for Li and Seng...

Harriet - Sexual Dysfunction
Li - Schizo
Stephen - Somatoform
Seng - DID

Our Dai Go didn join this study group... Andrew... Where are you??? I invite YY join our study group tomorrow... Don't know she want to join or not???

Will continue study tommorrow... See you guys tomorrow... Jia You!!!

One more SHOCK...

I hate it...
I don't know how to study this anymore...
I study very very hard on this still can't get good result...
I only can get B -...
I hate this subject very very very x 100 much...

How can I change this thinking to positive one???
What can I do to improve my skills???
When should I start study hard???

Yea....

I wanna start study hard now
Don't wanna lazy start now
Can't let my parent disappointed
Wish that I will have a good future

DrEaming - nightmare???

Oh My God!!!

I always dream about him. This two nights, HE came in my dream. HE and me done a lots of romance thimgs. Ooopss... Is that mean that I betrayed my boyfriend? Is that my heart oversteps the bound? Nobody can give me a correct answer.

Since when I become like that? I am not sure about this. I started to notice about all his action, reaction, and what he had been said. Am I crazy??? I think nope. I think I had a strong feeling to him already. All my friendstold me that now is time to stop this feeling. Cannot do something "SORRY" to my boyfriend. But, feeling, who can 100% control it? I think nobody can 100% cntrol it.

I had control myself to avoid had feeling towards him. But I fail to do so. Love is blindless and colourless. We cannot do comparison in love. From the aspects of economy, look, and mature level, my boyfriend is better than him. From education level, he is higher than my boyfriend.

I realized that now I care a lots of him than my bf. I don't know why... Should I discuss this problem with both of them? Will this problem influence our relationship? A lots of questions in my mind.

My Broken H3aRt...

Do not know why??? I miss him very much today. Actually what is Love??? May be I really don't understand; may be I still need to learn about it...

He hurts me, but I still like him... Why??? Is it MAN not bad, GIRL don't like???

Oh my GOD!

LoVe - What is that???

爱一个人:
要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求， 而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

Sunway Lagoon Trip

Hahaha!!!

Today is my first time went to Sunway Pyramid. I went there with my dearest, cutety, funny, lovely, sweety, nicely, and friendly group members. Who are them ley???? Hahaha!!! Yes, are they...

Andrew, Chiew Seng, Stephen, and Shirley.

Today morning when I on the way went to Shah Alam, I felt scare. I scared I will lost. Because this is the first time I went to Shah Alam alone. Then I scared I will be late. Wanna meet with Andrew at 10.15am ma!!! I don't like be late. Ooops!!! Who's know!!! I able to arrive there at 10.15am sharp. BBbbbUUuuutttttT need to wait for him about 20 minutes. Haiz!!! Never mind la. He got urgent thing ma!!!

Later ley, we depart to Sunway Lagoon.... Haiz!!! Need to wait people again. Three of you ha!!! Always come late one. Ask you guys meet at 11.00am, then you guys came at 12.10pm. I went shopping with Mr. A 1 hour di lol. Wasting my time.

I on diet today. I combine my breakfast, lunch, and dinner together. I ate at 5pm - McDonald again. But this time I found that McDonald taste so good. It may be I too hungry di. When on the way back, I am suffering with some noisy sound. Don't know who make this disturbance. Hahaha!!! But I happy with the sound lol!!! Make my today trip end up with a beautiful lyrics. Won't forget one...

Actually, nothing special in Sunway Lagoon for me la. But 4 of them make it become special. hahaha!!! This will be a good memory in my whole life. I wont forget you all. Please remember our " Ding Qing Xin Wu" - WATCH oooo!!!! We need to show this after n years gathering. For us to recognize each others.

Hope you all happy with today trip!!! Old Fashion words...... FRIENDSHIP FOREVER.

What I Want????

I don't know what is my choice??? Who I like???Who like me???
I fall in love with someone that I should not love. I dunno what can I do to make myself away from this guy. We will see each other everyday.
Sometime I feel that he also have feeling towards me. Is that true? Should I express my feeling to him?
Confusing!!!