Tuesday BLUE

Sad...Sad...Sad...Sad...Sad...
Today is the darkest for me. I never been so dark before...
In the Afternoon time...I said something wrong in my friend house. Then, this made him unhappy and uneasy... I feel very sorry about that... This one is okay... I still can stand about it.
Until the Evening time, went to drink "tong shui" with my gang. Very very happy in the beginning. Unfortunately, my friend suddenly collided with the table. Then, my "HOT" red bean soup pour out from the bowl and scalded my leg. My leg felt very pain and became red on that time. Actually, I felt very pain on that time. But I try my hard to endure the pain. I gave a smiley face to them. Because I do not anybody feel guilty about this. This was just an accident.
The night time... My friend bought me burger from pasar malam. So, after I took shower, we having dinner together and chi chatting. My roommate was the fastest to finish the meal. Therefore, she packed the wastes into a plastic bag. Then, without pay heed for my retainer, I just threw the plastic into the main garbage downstair. Until 7 p.m., I only realized that my retainer missing. Then, I only realized my roommate put it into the plastic bag that threw by me to the garbage.
After realized that, both of us rush to the garbage downstair to find. The garbage is very dirty and disgusted. But I still need to find it out. I do not have extra money to make a new one. Finally, I found it. Luckily, it wrapped inside a tissue; the tissue wrapped by a plastic bag; the plastic bag wrapped by some newspapers; then inside a plastic bag. Then, I used the "Listerine" t wash my retainer and brush with toothpaste. Double clean first, then put back my mouth.
I feel very down now. I wish that I can find at least one of them to talk with... But at this moment, I can't get two of them. May be this is the consequence of my dishonest... I feel like there are nobody beside me... I am in the lonely space...